ANGELS AND DEMONS by DanBrown

I happened to see my classmate slipping out the pages of some 500 pages book and that’s how I got my treasure. “Robert Langdon”, the only name which created hype in me after Robert Pattinson, a fair cold-blooded vampire in twilight series. The former name is not just the hero of the book but also my virtual inspiration. Being a professor of religious iconology and symbolism , the way he solves the mystery by his theory of relating the illuminati’s with his historical knowledge to depict the reason for people being killed and the places where they are meant to be killed are  just mind freaking. Though my inspiration appears to be a nerd in the beginning, the author has brought out the other side of Langdon in an excellent way with the lead female character, Vittoria vetra-Scientist of CERN. Even when she knew that Leonardo vetra wasn’t her own father, the way she gets emotional when he is murdered, makes us to understand that no blood -relationship is needed to have love on someone, that doesn’t fade. She acts little frantic at the start but then, tries to be practical and supports Langdon in full fledge to find the odd one.

Vittoria is more intelligent than Langdon but only their team work would end up fruitfully every time. Olivetti, the commander of Vatican City is sketched as a determined soul to his work and to his country. I must say that the sentiments by the author with this character by sacrificing his life for nation have worked out successfully and would make anyone think that he must be the next Olivetti of his nation. Dan Brown adds up the thrill exponentially by the serial killing of cardinals in churches in presence of public. Never in my life have I dreamt of a book that would spoil my sleep and make me scream out of fear in night but now “ANGELS AND DEMONS by DAN BROWN did that. Nobody could forget Langdon’s Mickey Mouse watch, and his way of misspelling prana as piranha yoga even at extremely life –threatening scenes.Maximilian Kohler,a Paralyzed person, with his wheel chair attached with electronic gadgets like camera,phone,pager appears to be a perfect head of CERN and work loving man. Other roles like Captain Rocher, Hassasin, and Carlo Ventresca that made up this novel are characterized in different manner that makes this book unique. I would rate this book as my favorite one in my book shelf because, Langdon made me learn to handle things logically, Vittoria taught me to be bold and brave enough to handle the situations, Olivetti for his determination, Kohler for his love with his work and finally the Master mind DAN BROWN who invoked my thoughts and made me think that I could be an creator of other such or even better books in future. 

OdD ONe oUt- its DeFinEtlY yoU!

"Hey I have my model pracs tomorrow! So I will message you after that buddy!". One of the common message which our friend's mobile would have witnessed during our first year labs. However only the last minute study , standing in front of your lab,messed up with your ID card ,a blue and black pen, borrowed scale and pencil will help you out.

                    And now,months have passed. My level of education and preparations of exams are in deep relationship with each other, inversely proportional . I would have thought it millions of times at-least . How the hell are these programs gonna help me out in my life! However hard I prepare, whatever efforts i put on my lab programs to study,or understand,or mug up, there exists a program which threatens me-with its appearance and length, of course. Even if i try to bring back the old methodologies of memorizing line by line and write it on a piece of paper it fails.

                  "The Most" toughest part -selecting my own question paper-deciding my fate of marks myself . My hands and thoughts determines the result of burning my midnight oil. And,like a shot,the selection of question paper hits me down virtually. "Damn!Its the program! The only program which i was afraid of!!". Still,gaining back my confidence level I put my first letter on the paper given "Anna University-Practical Examinations" . And now,before filling the details asked in my answer sheets like " Reg No,College code,college name,Subject code,Lab Examination Name,Session and the Date",I forget half of the memorized lines of that program. And now,With the lines I remember,I somehow manage to get a proceed sign from the external and switch on the system to get the output or at least to bring that bloody hell black screen.

But,guess what happens??
Session of VIVA starts...........
Being the 11th member in my batch I try to knock my ears out to hear what he/she asks questions to previous Reg No members. He/She then calls,"Next Reg No:...039". So, now its my turn. I stand before him as the symbol of confidence to pretend am pretty good in the subject. But he/she smashes my heart with a word, "Well!let me ask you some other question which I haven't asked for others!". So what would be next ?? other than getting "02 or 03" in viva session??!!

                     The last twenty minutes-Heaven for those who aren't able to get the exact output but somehow manages to bring the output screen. Internal Examiner comes near you and puts you partially verified and you manage to suppress your smile of happiness. But when she comes near me,plucks my paper and say, "You have got so less in VIVA??!! So you haven't listened to any of my classes?? Don't ever expect me to sign as partially verified. Get out of the lab soon"!!

                     Now stepping my foot out of the lab,my friend waits there to console me "that's ok man!! You will score A or B grade!" .In turn I stare at him , thinking........
                   "How come I get the most toughest question every time?? and not my friend?!!"
and leaves out a sigh with a smile!

Everyone reading this would have had this Experience....... NOTE(if you are an Engineer) :p

                     

Engineering (B.E) -A tRaP!!

Engineering! - A boat caught in storm when travelling in ocean!! And the sailor-himself isn't sure about getting out of it alive.

                                

              Four complete years,I got committed with my boy friend-ENGINEERING! We were in deep love with each other when it began with a fresher's party.I was in entirely a new relationship and i wanted it to last forever. I guessed my (s)election of the department will turn me to a techno geek and make my neighbors count  my name along with top personalities of this world. Being the only girl in my entire family,I wanted my dad to make proud becoming an engineer but what if my relation happens to have a break up??!! Never!! And so, I slipped my sleeps for him.I never ate through out the day since he compelled me to do it. He expected me to be very possessive and leave my relations for him. I would be his puppy,hearing his every command, whenever he calls out my name. He irritated me with lot a hell of  assignments,records and exams, still, I resisted everything just because I wanted the relationship to move on somehow!

                   And now I have crossed my three years successfully,pretending myself that we were and we are in a mutual understanding, satisfying each other in every terms. But guess what???  He now has the most toughest part for me , "Placements". He depicts me as an useless fellow when am not in with campus recruitment . Now am about to complete my engineering , with no love left for him anymore in my heart. I don't even want those days of my Engineering studies to come back ,other than for few friends.

                    Its not just with me alone. Every girl and boy gets stick to the name Engineering for status and make their life ruined!! Make sure you don't get trapped into it and tout your time with this!!

Thamilanae!! unaku nandri!! :)

Bhumi ~ Change Today.. Change Tomorrow..

Techno geek??!!

ScienceDaily: Information Technology News

Love redefined!

"During the sleepless nights and endless dreams,I pretend that the past is not real.I never knew things would change so fast.U'r not here-am alone and trying to run away from the pain that has grown.Without you, I feel so empty.There is so much crying and I feel like dying. Dear,this one is for you!One who swept off my feet at first sight,to the one who promised me to accompany my entire life but now you have gone.Inthis hopeless world I have only your hopeful words in my broken heart.This shooting pain in my eyes- I cant hold it anymore.you walked away.Now am colder than the ocean breeze. After you are gone,day after day,I slowly go insane.I hear your voice and taste your smile.Long ago,I was totally free with my love.Where did all time go now?Wherever you go,whatever it takes and however my heart breaks,I will be right here waiting for you.just for you babe!"    read my mom's  diary!!      

Three years before:

"karthik -First B.E graduate of our family!Am proud of you son!" enounced my father gladly."But Daddy.....!!! I have to pass all my semesters without any arrears".Staring at me and my words he gave me a tight hug and suddenly the chillness spread my veins.It is then I retrieved that am going to fleet my entire four years here ,in hostel ,staying away from him and my mom.Bidding him a gud bye with a fake smile and wet eyes I directed myself to the notice board to check out the updates of room numbers and at last got my room keys. I was the first person to get into the room ,later came my room mate."Hey ! Am Gautam.Your room mate! Guess we will be sharing the same bed for four years" he said with a spicy smile. I didnt know how to react and laughed like a mad for no reason . One topic led to other and we had late night talks  about our family,relations,schooling,sports,films,friends but not studies. 

August 26,2009:

         "My dear students..." startled our college chairman to address on the freshers day and we started looking out for girls-the cute ones.Our eyes were scanning each row and column and we tried our best to make out from the crowd but we couldn't."Mission failed!" spoke my inner voice. "Yes, No female here seems to be worthy man!!"said gautam. We looked and giggled at each other.  Every one was stabile in the conference hall for more than an hour and majority of souls were longing for him to end his words. Once the lecture was over we regained the hope and were in process of hunting for beautiful girls."Awww! My life is ruined now!I cant spend my years with just boys karthik!!" he yelled. 

         First day of our college,9AM.Our classes began! "Engineering Mechanics",said my lecturer and started singing lullaby the very first day.We were provided with the class schedule papers of each week day and nothing seemed interesting for us except sports and debate period. I was the district champion in volley ball and my friend gautam-state player. Friday afternoon,1 to 3 was debate and it was a platform to share our views n improve our communication skills. The first debate topic given was "Who is more stronger??Men or Women?" . Girls and boys got seperated into two teams gradually and arguments were so hot! We guys were dominating girls in every point and they couldn't oppose us.Since I was from an anglo-Indian school i had a passion towards engllish and I spoke comparitively much than others. It is when it all happened!! 

      "Mr.Karthik! How do you say we gals are week??We manage our family,relations,children ,husband and also do comparitively better in jobs than men! Can you guys give birth to a child?Can you carry a baby weighing in kilo's for ten months?Can you lose one litre of blood every month and still remain so active those four days? But we do!We are more strong physically and mentally!",she said. Aditi.Yes,that was her name...Aditi Krishnan.The girl who opposed me with a zip of light in her speech and fierce of fire in her eyes.No body could answer to her questions and since she pointed my name and asked, other boys were acting as if they were not ashamed and it was a cracking affront for me to the core.Still I managed with few words but lost my breath and started stammering looking at my girl's beauty.yeah!She was no longer a third person.I felt her so close to my heart and all of a sudden I wanted to make her my princess.

              Is there such a thing as love at first sight???

              Thats the question i used to ask...until i laid eyes on you.

              How is it possible to feel so much for a stranger,a passerby?

              Love has no limits,no color,no time.

              Thats when i realized that i had fallen in love-love at first sight!!

Unavailing to hear a response from our side, jury declared the result in affirmative to girls and also announced Aditi as "Vocalizer of the week" . Everyone were back to normal but I wasn't . Not because I lost to her but I couldn't forget that naughty smile she gave on me with one of her eyebrows lifted when she got the title. Time paced and soon it became dark and we stepped out of our room to canteen for dinner. My eyes were searching for her in the crowd.I wasn't sure whether she was an hostalate or day scholar but wished I would have her by my side now. Getting my plates filled I sat on table to eat but I wasn't comfartable . I measured my foot out of canteen and was staring at the full moon. Suddenly I got my head stuck by someone saying "Buddhu!What are you doing here?Go and eat insde!Chalo..". I obeyed those words like a puppy in hands of its master because it was my Aditi. I felt as if thousands of butterflies were rounding my stomach and heart. I was smiling at everyone in eatery and never took off my eyes from her. I felt everything empty around me except her. 

              And now I have fallen in love ,I had the reason to smile every moment i lived but thoughts stroke my mind "what if she doesnt feel the same for me?" I made many overnight preparations everyday (spoling gautam's sleep) for proposing but I couldnt.Am not a person who doesnt dare to speak with girls but when it comes to my love ,I promise you , nothing will make you feel better until she comes near and say "Baby!I love you!!". Days passed through and nothing changed between us except a "hi!",not when she crosses me in college but when she finds me that am at the back of her! yes!Entire college knew that am in damn love with Aditi and she too knew it to an extent but never asked me about it! Semester time tables were scheduled and every soul of the college was preparing for their distinction but I was still with my own rehearsals of proposals. I was forced to concentrate myself  after each call from my parents but her smile made it impossible. 

     "Happy birthday son!",wished my mom and dad with their happy birthday songs through vociferation. "so what do you want for this birthday dear? "asked my mom.I was out of control and screamed "Aditi". "what??"yelled my parents.."Papa!! Aditi,my college mate, is on waiting to wish!I will call you early morning.Love you and am missing your presence!! take care",i ended the call with a mobile kiss."Thank god!"My stupid brain would have landed me in trouble if  i wasn't an expert in lying,I appreciated myself. Hostalates became "The Unpredictables" on that night.Everyone gathered around in my room with a photo cake and cameras. When i was about to cut the cake my buddies switched off the lights and i lit the candle.

    I didnt know what should be done.I crossed my arms and held it across my chest and ran  into my bedsheet.I was the most happiest person in the world at that moment and i wanted it to be forever.It was my Adithi who switched off the lights and gave a shocking surprise to me.But ,since i wasn't sure about the parts exposed with my dressing sense I had to get wrapped with my bedclothes. "arey!!!come on karthik!I have taken such a risk by entering into the boys hostel to see and wish you at midnight.... but you run away seeing me?? ".Her tone seemed so pity and I felt like pulling her too inside the bedsheet and wrap her into my arms. But in the case of aditi I was always been a great imaginer and not doer. I managed to make my dresses proper and came infront of her to recieve her wishing.She wished me with her gorgeous smile and her elegant  look in casuals added beauty to it. She gave a sign of shy and ran back to her room giving me a thin cover. 

    My pals were so eager than me to open it up before even cutting the cake and  I uncovered it. Requiring it to be private, i streaked into my bathroom with it. After reading the impressions on the paper I felt my heaven in the world. I came out and was proving everyone I was born with 32teeth. "yes!!I have won it!! And thats my Aditi darzz!"I enjoined. "Double dhamakka!! ur b'day treat and for ur love uh!! We are lucky enough this day dude ..."said my friends. "usshhh!! Keep silence! Thats not a proposal letter! I found her mobile number on it!!",I reverted. "oh!! Thats so mean!!...." .       "I will give you double treat anyways !!" I said and we had fun that night. I was back to sleep after an hour and it was now around 1:30 AM. My eyes begged me to sleep but my heart wanted to do something else... I hugged my pillow and wanted to replace it with aditi. I took my mobile and messaged her "Hi!This is Karthik!" and placed my mobile aside .

    Less than a minute i got a reply saying "hi!"

              'Hey didnt you sleep yet?'

              'Nope,How will i ?'

              'Why?'

              'Because I gave my number to you this night '

              'You were so confident that  I wil message you tonight??'

              'yes'

              'You cant judge my character so soon Aditi!' 

               'yes!But i can predict one's thoughts ,who was behind me for months together' 

I didnt knew what to reply and just ended the conversation saying good night . My nineteenth birthday was an unforgettable moment for my many of my friends and especially me. Soon we became closer and our exams were also getting closer. We did combine studies and we made our chemistry work out before our physics exams.We were depending upon each other for anything and everything regarding studies,issues with friends and families,hanging out on weekends etc. After exams ,we were set apart by summer holidays!It is then i understood the propotional relationships perfect. Distance and emotions are directly propotional.Far from her I felt my love for her than before.And she was unable to spend her nights alone without my calls. 

  Finally classes were opened for second semester and we were the most happiest persons for that cause. Everyday more than 200 eyes followed us and our activities.Few wished us to be couples,few wanted us to be good friends and other few were jealous of us and indeed desired our relation to break.Inspite of all,we were close enough to make their stomachs burn and now rumours started  spreading little more  fast that Me and Aditi were committed. As this issue became the talk of the colege Aditi asked me the most toughest question!! "Do you love me??" It wasn't sturdy to answer but her further reactions after my reply was interrupting me. But this time I dared to make an reply.... 

  "Aditi! Love is not going to make my world go around ,but it will make the ride worthwhile if you stay with me forever... Am not proposing you because i can live with you,but its beacause I cant live without you . Nothing makes me feel as you do and i dont want to miss it in life ever!! Take care!" ,I returned men's hostel with wet eyes and weak heart. I couldn't even share it with my best of all best friends Gautam.But he did found it easily because he knew that the only thing which would make me cry is Aditi. He tried to add sweet to his words but I was in such a  bitter state. Also, I felt sad that I left her alone in ground after proposing and now I wanted to know whether she reached the women's hostel safely and if she is angry with me for leaving her alone. I never understand why do girls switch off their mobiles when someone proposes or when fight occurs! And same happened with her, I wasn't able to make any contacts with her for two days rather. 

  Semester results were published and Aditi was one percent ahead.She came running towards me in canteen and filled my mouth with sweets and hugged in front of hundreds of guys.

'I know you are happy with your results but its public Adhiti!step back!',I said.

'I dont need anybody's permission to hug my love',she said.

' what????'

'I love you karthik! I dont wanna miss you in my life!"

Whole Canteen celebrated victory of love and obviously my bank balance ended up with minimun balance. I wasn't able to utter a word out of happiness. My imagination atlast turned into reality. Days passed in pace and we soon became the grammar of love in the campus. We enjoyed our love days to the extreme.We loved ,kissed, hugged, slapped, laughed, romanced with each other.We practiced everything except sex. Two years and six months passed by and we were almost ready to get into our finals. 

  It is then a storm broke my heart.On a birthday party i came to know about X love of aditi from her friends during schooldays.I literally wanted to cry out of anger and pain of being cheated but controlled my emotions. When Aditi reached the party hall I asked her about this and she replied "It was just lust karthik!It wasn't worth and serious to say to you and so i didnt!" But I never felt the way before I used to feel with her. I started making simple issues a bigger one though she used to apologise me many times.Its human nature to think about negative aspects alone of an individual,even with your own girl.Small arguments led to big fights and we decided not to speak with each other in life time. she did claimed me for her silly mistakes but I never wanted to forgive and i ended the call. 

Now,

It was vacation time and I was back to my home.since I was the only child and pet for my mom I never wanted her to do any works in my presence.I helped her to the extreme I can and it is then I found the Chamber of secrets-My mom's diary.Its know its not appreciable to read third person's diary but she was my mom,one who gave birth.Not a third person.I slipped through its pages fastly and I found those words...."During the sleepless nights and endless dreams,I pretend that ......."    I realized that she was in love with someone during her teenage and was sure that it wasn't my dad. Already being upset by Aditi I hated girls to an extent and now I felt like screaming to my mom. I went into hall and cam stroked it with hatredness. My dad and mom was shocked seeing my behaviour and I demanded an explanation from my mom with my voice raised. 

  Every one were experiecing the moments of silence and then rang the telephone in living room.My dad attended. Showing the signs of stupefaction he passed the earpiece to mom.I smelled something was serious.Soon after hearing the words of person on otherside my mom went inside the room,locked it and started to shed tears. It was an chaos. I wasn't able to understand what was happening around me and then my dad said...

       'My better half,your mom,loved a man during her college days .Our generation were not the supporters of love but loved their cast more than their child's happiness.That is how she married me and also shared her pain with me years before ,even before we started making love with each other'

  'What was the call about??Why is she crying??',I asked.

  'Her past love rested in peace.It was a call from his children'.

  'Dadddd!! Haven't you asked anything more about him to mom???'

  'Never !Why should i?? I knew she was pure at heart and thats why she shared her pain of love. I would have been mean if I havent trusted her.She lives for me and you.I know her better than you'

  'But dad..... Its cheating...'

  'And now you can shut up your mouth!you do not have any rights to comment on my wife's character and you better  pack up your luggages for hostel now!This moment!!'

  'Dad,Am sorry for my behaviour,But....'

        'But..?But what??'

  'why didnt you ask her about her love anymore?'

  'Because it hurts her! Moreover If am gonna ask anymore about her past love,What is the value and meaning of love I have on her???'

I felt a virtual slap on my face! Love is not about loving her,caring her,struggling to get her but understanding means a lot than anything,even though when your love wasn't able to explain you the situation!! I urged to my room and took my mob to call her... I distressed whether she would have switchedd off it as usual,but it wasn't!

 I requested to mobile network services to connect to my LifeLine!

 She attended the call.... I said "Hello.I love you!" 

THuPpaKki - TheMe

GuEsS ThE TitLe!

XYZ Conference Hall,Newyork:


                                                 ~~~Hall echoes with the frequency of the applauds...~~~

              "Guess the title!", the first novel by Sneha Nagendran, is a hurricane of book, whirling almost around all the streets of India and beyond, capturing souls within its twists, carrying them high in the air, rattling their very bones until their secrets and shameful pasts, their moments of kindness and generosity, pour onto the ground below and define the people of a borough, a city, a country and a world without judgment or prejudice, but with the compassion and humanity that only a great writer can provide....And to be more specific,only an Indian who had subsisited everything through her veins ..... 

The award is the world's largest literary prize for a single work on combination of facts and fiction published in English. It involves libraries from all corners of the globe, and is open to books written in any language. The Award is administered by ***** Libraries and to the expectation of every soul here..... The award goes to Miss.Sneha Nagendran who penned the international best seller "Guess the title"....

                        The moment i heard my name to be spelled in front of thousands and lakhs of people,it was never an ordinary experience to hold my breath to face each one among the crowd from the stage with a smile and orate few words thanking my readers. Mike in one hand,And with my award on my other,for my first baby, I felt myself respected for the talent i have been gifted with.....Hundreds of calls from my dear ones ,I still managed to get along with the crowd flooded at the occasion requesting for my autographs and for a click with me! 

                          Finishing my supper with soups i felt nothing can compete with my India's most delighted pongals and idly's.And now it was already 8pm,I admitted myself to leave the hall since i had to get my next flight to Chennai the next morning. Getting my car doors opened i pushed myself to take my seat and the second i locked it,it was like a film in theatre with digital effects was muted abruptly. I cud hear nothing....feel nothing...sense nothing.... but i could visualize people, the flash of cams and my readers waving me a gud bye!


                           Reacting to the actions of people among the crowd which almost drowned my car, my driver somehow managed to get the way along the track of the concert hall.Resting myself on the berth of the car and windows closed, I startled to stare at the streets of Newyork which reminded me about it-something special-sweet-surplus-peculiar-extra ordinary and of course Memorable! I grabbed my mobile from my pocket and unlocked it . My fingers started scrolling the screen faster in search of those messages and when i initiated to read it , my mind began intellecting "why should things change with time??!! When maths and physics have numerous constant factors why dont life has any such factors other than change?? No longer i was able to resist my tears from my eyes, rolling down the cheeks ,wetting the display of my iphone!


                            "Excuse me mam!",pronounced a voice! "oh yeah!" It was my driver.Trying to wipe my tears, I replied him,"Thanks buddy! Do pick me tomorrow at 4AM to airport.Don't forget!" Bidding him a bye, I entered into the seven star hotel and got my keys cleared! I never wanted to use the invention of science - "The Elevator" from the small age and so i preferred climbing up stairs with the help of servant for carrying tons of gifts from my readers! Unlocking the door, I felt the cool breeze making strands of my hair floating. Thanking the servant, i locked my room and was in a chaos! How could i stay alone in this vast room?? It was so spacious that i wasn't able to view the other end of the live place. Ending up with a conclusion to have my Shower, I stepped into the bathroom and was little excited about it! Never in my life , I had seen a bathroom designed for VIP's and now am going to use it! Ha ha...!! It was not bad at all...And the interior works of it was stunning! Dressing up myself in a night suit as a sign of successful bath, I came out to the balcony, the other end of my room, after few seconds of walk.


                            Trying to view my gifts placed on the bed, it showed up like a gift Corner-perfect! And  with a cup of milk in my left hand, I was lost in thoughts of past once again. when the entire world was celebrating my victory with first novel, I was pushed to a situation to make a fake smile with them! When the ownership of the novel goes with me, I must have been the most happiest soul in the world at that minute of arc! But i didn't! Why was i so dumb...? Had i had break up with any one? Never! My Fb status never changed from single to committed! Happened to have a crush during my college days but it wasnt immensive! Well, My crush was also a reason for retaining myself single because i never found any one better than him, or atleast like him! Wat would be the cause for my loafing then?? Fights with my family members? Not at all! They are much happier than me at this moment! No exams tensions...No family burdens...No punishments for incomplete assignments.... I was a perfect spinster with a handful salary provided by TCS!! and the fame through my novel was more than enough for me to live as one of the top twenty personalities in Bangalore! 


                            My mobile was ringing aside, I didnt want to say an hello! I was frustated a lot, that i couldn find myself what was wrong with me ! the clock ticked 10 and I heard a screaming noise outside! "hilarious!" , I dont believe in ghosts but i promise you, nothing will make you feel better when u hear such a scary noise at ten! Preparing for a war with the owner of voice , I opened the door in anger and I leaned on the wall, out of surprise!! The scary voice was from the vocal chord of smal kid, between 2 to 3 years of age! He was playing "hide and seek" with his friend .  He shouted because his parents wanted him to go to bed! 


                             Hearing my mobile ringing again i ran to the balcony and attended the call.It was again a birdsong,wishing for my novel! Closing my doors, I fell into the hands of my bed, hugging my pillows for a sleep! Few seconds later.....

                            I heard someone calling me behind... "Hey,Lady!"...."Oh My God!!" My mind yelled inside," U want me to believe in devils and ghosts?? Why do u make me feel such sounds??" , Again i clinched my pillow and covered my entire body with the coversheet and began my try to sleep..... I sensed again some one was standing beside me and i was in a fear, whether to turn around and search for anyone's presence..... or pretend that am just sleeping! Collecting my thoughts and boldness i switched ON the lamp and turned to confirm my doubts!

                             Looking at the shadow moving aside, I stepped my foot back and the result- I was hit down to floor by the table placed by! It was the boy who screamed and brought the hell out of me! "Hey! How did u get here?? And y?? when? for what?....." I shooted him with my questions! Inturn he jus made me a single answer... "I need you to play hide and seek with me,C'mon darling! Lets play now!"  though my heart wanted to play with him, i was damn tired, i couldn make his wish happen!" I opened my doors and left him out of  his room,knocked the door and was waiting till the doors opened.

                         A manly person opened the door and i blinked my eyes abruptly. He seemed to be like him. No,He wasn't like him.It was him-My crush! I never spoke a word with him, but showed a sign of bye and walked towards my room.

                           My things inside the bag were knocked out when i fell down few minutes before! Replacing the skipped things inside my clasp, I found my diary left aside opened. Closing the bag i placed myself on the bed with my diary and my ear was able to feel those laughs. yes!the  Laughter of those stupid people who pranked at me- when i got caught in classes for my misbehaving, When i was late to the classes,when i slipped down in staircases, when i didnt have enough money on my birthday party's, when i tried to make a best pic but it turned into a tragedy, making fun about me in group chats, comparing me with a nerdy in bus stops, pushing me to the front on college strikes, who made comments about my walks-looks-smile-studies-character, spreading rumours about my relationship status in campus, Eating my lunch in my absence, Mid night wishes,who called me aloud with my nick names in presence of my crush, facial with cakes on b'days, who made me cry on farewell party, the only reason i never wanted my college life to end .......!!

                         It has been two years since i had any meetings or get-together with my buddies! Distance and  emotions are directly propotional. The more distance we travel,more time we stay away from our loved ones, more we tend to miss them in our life. And my friends must b tired because they have been running through my mind for every second, they  gotta b a thief because they have stolen my heart n I must have been a bad shooter coz I kept missing them for long time. 

                      Checking out of my messages again , I dropped few tears on pages of my diary. I wasn't sure whether my tears were for those messages or for seeing my crush with a child. My passion of writing have earned me lot of fame,money,respect and of course happiness- that couldn withstand with the absence of my Friends! I took my lappy and opened my gmail account expecting their mails! Lots of mails pouring into it but my eyes were searching for those mails starting with my friends name!Had any readers with name of my friends had sent me a mail, I peeped into it and smiled how it would have been if the mail was from my friends. 

                      I never realized the value of their presence but emptiness fills my heart and mind, in their absence. whenever they call me,mail me, I just ignored them keeping myself busy with my collegues and fans.I called them late nights when we were binded by those college days... But after my farewell , In  succesive stages of my life , I never remembered to wish them on their birthdays, to hang out with them, I literally stopped adding real happiness to my life by swithching off their thoughts. And now those idiotic friends have made me cry worse-hours together. 

                    Composing my thoughts on paper have relaxed me in all the  means and so i took out my pen to drop out my thoughts in lines. 

                  To all my Champions,Whom i miss : 

                     Forever- is a long time. May be too long for us! All the hurt,pain,tears remains same within me without you.I know i can never run back to those college days which redefined the meaning of happiness. Nothing could seperate us, but now I guess am standing alone...I know  Friendship is not a game to play, It is not a word to say, It doesn't start on March and ends on May, It is tomorrow, yesterday, today and everyday . I Miss u lot but never say me u miss me coz it hurts even more. U knew the secrets which i never wanted to say and its you all who made my grey skies turn blue. U were my walls, I lean on you and sometimes it was just enough to know that you all were there. You never allowed me to do any stupidity alone. I know your good bye's on our last meeting were not the mark of an end but the sign of missing me. I may be a top personality of the state , still am same old,stupid,silly idiot of you all. I want you badly by my side right now but dazed world has places located too far. I need you to see my tears dropping down , so that you would come behind me running, not to stop it but to slap it! I wonder whether you too will be writing a letter for me as I did now, because Pain of losing you all for these many days weren't your fault but mine. I just want to let you all know- We are all tighter than the fat guy in tights. Hope i will see you all soon! 

                          Though I haven't thought much about my puppylove in past few months, seeing him with his child was genuinely not felicitous one for me. And now knowing that he is some ones property made my mind more weaker. I started askin stupid  questions myself " For past years , since you met him, you have been dodging ur love in name of crush??? Is it love?? Or its jus lust? why did he marry somebody else , not you sneha?" I couldn't answer any of those and remained tacit. My eyes wanted to ease and i pretended to sleep with infinite questions of how, why ,where,when and whats,placing my diary inside the bag.

                           "Call me when you travel here again!" . My driver gave his contact numberand showed me adieu. Inturn, i gave him few dollars and chocolates for his family. I loved to see his ecstasy when he felt that his passeger cared him inspite of her busy schedule. He gave me a hug and whispered "I will miss you child!, Take care" showing him a bye and a word of "I too will miss you uncle" and got busy with the ticket and bag checking procedures.

                           Siiting idle for more than a day and travelling on air was not my piece of cake but i had to resist it. I tried my best to pass the time with my lappy and ipods but it also-ran. Sharing a cup of potable with my readers in economy class was my best time in entire journey and i felt lofty when the airhostess pleased me for a sign. "Dad and Mom!, I promised you i will make you proud one day- and now i have done it. People in every country knows who am i" i rustled myself. 

                         17th june 2017.Finally, I reached my Incredible INDIA on my birthday.Smell of having my civilized people around me was an adorable thing. Indians were not same as they were in past 2012. They have learnt to make our INDIA a better one, Corruption and pollution free, importance of keeping our environment a clean one. No more caste and sub-caste problems. My INDIA has become eventually "The power house of the World". Walking into the airport of chennai was like walking in a heaven. "Horrific!", I shouted losing my emotions and later realized people staring at me. Soon i called my mom to inform that her child was back to INDIA. 

                         "If i haven't made my friends to feel brushed off, they would have came here to welcome me" said my inner voice. "Idiot! Even you forget us, we will never forget our buddy!"  refrained many voices with a slap in face. I felt as if Batman have came at last to save me from a place of loneliness, and this time it wasn't a single one but a troop of batman(s).I couldn't speak a word out of happiness, happiness filled my eyes with tears, my ears became deaf with the shock, I was immovable for getting my cells of life back! I hugged all my friends like a child who got back her mother after years together! Even my parents never thought of incurring me but my friends were waiting a long the whole night to receive me at airport.

                        I started apologizing them for my ignorance with every person but no body cared me, instead they took out my bag and peeped into it, asking, "Hey! How much money do u have ? Should we go to KFC or road side shops? " I said wherever they wanted lets do it! and in turn my crazy champions began their teasing "U bloody! Dont dare to show ur popularity with us. U are the same stupid creature for all here now!"Managing to hear all those words from weirdy fellows we reached our destination-KFC!! When few shared their family photos with me,a dn few told about their engagements I had nothing to say other than my fans and readers who subscribed me in facebook. "Wow! you have 1,40,291 subscribers??? Awesome! We need a special treat for it, but some other day! Now all our stomach is dumped" said a friend. I nodded with a smile and the other one winked and said,"Hey you all here know what is that?? 140291?? " And to my surprise, everyone was making a wicked smile and seeing me as if i was a werewolf!


                          "What??I really dont recognize anything... temme .. what is it!plz yaar!" I pleased . "Hey it is ur boy's birthday!14-02-91" They were referring to my calf love. I never reacted to it. I wanted to divert the topic, and tried to do it! But as usual, they found something was not right and asked me "C'mon! wats the matter? Why are you sad?" I wanted to cry aloud and tell them that he got married with somebody else and i saw him with a child in my stay place at Newyork still i controlled it initially.But when they started asking me  "How was his wife?How many children does he have? What is he doing now? He got settled in NewYork? Did he invite you for coffee?"  and many more questions, I bursted into tears and hugged one of my friend and said, " I never knew I loved him to this extreme, until I saw him with his child. I have'nt felt this kind of pain before and i literally die each second for missing him in his life! "  My friends tried to control my weeping but i wasn't able to  stop it. My mobile was ringing.It was my dad. Controlling my frequency of voice I replied him, "I will be home after few hours dad! I am with my friends" and i felt a hand resting on my shoulder saying "Also say him that you will be getting to home with your crush!" 

                           "I just wanted you to know how much i mean for you. It was my sister's child!I am a bachelor still!  How come i will marry another girl when a sweet one like you is waiting here for me? I came to see you in Newyork but it was your friends who said me to play such a prank with u darlz!" told my crush wrapping me into his arms . No, he was no more my crush.He was,is and will be my love forever. My crazy pals started taking snaps of us and gigled at me for my tears for him. "Hey! we just wanted to show you how it feels when you lose your loved ones! No issues" spelled my friends. "No! It was worth doing it, Else Never in life, I would have known wat Friendship and Love is!"I said,hugging my love life!! 

                       Wat makes some people dearer is not just de happiness dat u feel when u meet  them , but de pain u feel when u miss them!

Height of Stupidity!!

I am a gal, crazy about inter college symposiums, seminars, events, workshops or whatever you call it! I attend many such things bunking my colleges. The next day I would get in for classes producing a dummy Medical Certificate (MC). "Dream spark yatra" - an event conducted by Microsoft was held on 6th March this year. Info passed into my ears about this event a day before. After a discussion with friends through calls I decided to have 2 of them with me for participating in it.

I called the event organizer and asked for details of the event. He told me that its fine for anyone to attend but it’s hard to get a participant certificate here. In turn to gain his sympathy and certificate I said that my college does not provide on duty permissions and extracurricular activities with some extra spice to it. Finally the organizer accepted to give us the certificates.



The plans for going to the “Dream Spark Yatra” was sorted out in the 11th hour and we 3 of us attended the event. We won few pen drives and had certificate when we returned back. We were on cloud nine to have a Microsoft Certificate with us though it was damn silly!



Next day, in the college, I went with my usual drama of a fake MC. My principal caught up my throat by asking "You had been to DREAM SPARK YATRA and acting here with a MC?" His anger grew upon us as he continued with many scolding. This made me realize that I am in a trap having no backdoor and I had to accept the truth. After confessing I asked my principal as how he knew this truth. His reply really shocked three of us to the core. The thing was that my principal’s son was the organizer of the event! We experienced the meaning of Coincidence! Though it was a great shock for us we three looked at each other and bursted into laugh for our stupidity! And now whenever I hear about some events I ask for the details of the organizer before asking about the Event details!! 

Once in a life....Love gives us a fairy tale!

"smile please...A liitle towards left...Loosen ur lips...Strait ur hair..Feel Casual..."



               Adjusting My camera lens and the position of ppl on the other side ,who trust me that i wud show dem as beautiful as possible wasn't an easy job but i loved it! bcoz i luvd photography,indeed its my passion too... As a nature lover I roam around places which has the atmost touch of greenish themes that tempt me to keep the photographer inside me to stay alive. Passing through many places, not just nature attracts me but also lovely couples who spend their love time in parks. As such one cute couple asked me to make a snap of them, how would i say no to it ??? Placing them in a photographic position with a lovely touch , i ran to the other side to make a snap at them. Making my camera in ON mode, and with the Zooming tricks the moment i clicked my camera I went totally dumb!!??



              Unable to change from my photographer position I was totally in a chaos. "Where did the couple go?? I was taking a pic of the couple but the snap i made wasnt that! What happened in a moment that my camera flashed??? Is it a magic? Regaining my thoughts back i holded my camera a liitle down my chin and all i could see was a girl with string of pearls which can drive any guy mad!!! She was supposed to cross us by mistake without knowing i was takin a shot of that couple and as soon as the camera flashed at her she knew that she interrupted us and bent her heads as a sign of sorry!

              When she asked me sorry, i was supposed to respond her but, what was my stupid brain doing? it lost it senses? I was totally reactionless with my lady's beauty! Yes! And now my heart started to think her as "my girl' and not "the girl".... Everything changed suddenly... The whole world became mine... I cud feel nothin around me except her... she had taken off my breath... My eyes refused to make its regular blinks... Her blackish hair with a feather cut was simply superb! She was wearing a black tshirt with an unzipped coat , a creamed colored skirt reached above her knee.... she was combing a strand of hair with her thin fingers....



 Never in my life i had thought that a single click with my camera wud change me this way!! She was just a passer-by but i admired her madly for no reason!!! How did i notice all this in a moment???   She made me to feel thousands of dreams with my eyes opened! ......Only fools fall in love! and i guessed am one of them....



                   Dayzz passed.... Where must i search for her in this wide northern korea??? My assistant in my studios tried their best to bring me out of her thoughts but they cudnt! Even though i knew it was possible to get rid of her memoriesi didnt wanted to do it! I loved her... i loved her presence in my heart... i loved the pain of missing her....and after all  i loved my love with her.

             

                  I am a guy who believed that men'z attraction was his hair and eyes for gals!  I used to do my hair conditioning on the third sunday of every month. But as a project was assigned by ***** organisation , I wasnt able to do it last month. So this second sunday i decided to do my hair conditioning since my hair was growin rough! In the next street was **** parlour for men n women and they were one of the experts in conditioning the hair! As soon as i entered the parlour i was given the seat number and was kindly asked to wait for few minutes. Girls in the parlour were the grammar of beauty!  Soon my token was sealed and i was asked to get positioned myself in a seat for hair conditioning! after a couple of minutes a soft skinned lady was conditioning my hair with the chemical products. As usual i was dreaming about my lady with eyes opened and returned to d present state when  the foam of hair conditioner wanted to kiss with eyes....I felt really irritated and i was given the water to rinse my eyes thoroughly.



                 Damid! Watzit??? I have gone tatally crazy???Was my love with my lady has driven me mad and every gal in parlour was lookin like her to my eyes alone ??? or was it really she??.. the one who took my breath off at the park....???             Yup! Its she... I didnt know wat should i do all of a sudden? Should i hug her in front of all n sey my love? should i remain silent and ask her whether she had any boyfriend? or should i ask her way to home n speak about my love with her to her parents??? 



                  And again i heard her voice asking me a sorry for irritating my eyes with chemicals! This time my brain dared to make a reply wid a smile" thats ok dude! And do u remember me??? " To my surprise,She nodded "yes!" and i managed to have a little talk to her before i left the parlour....She was a part time worker in the parlour and was doing her studies in ****** university!



                   After a day i heard some one knockin my studio door....."It was my angel with my cap which i left in the parlour wantedly hoping she wud bring it for me here n i tapped against my chest sayin "U r not bad at predicting at her actions babe!" "I invited her into my work place and made her feel comfortable.. we had talks about her studies, work n family. I felt that i wud fit their family for perfect! Leavin her alone for a moment i went upstairs to get my family photo.. Returning back i saw her staring at me with her blue eyes..... Still i cudnt feel her anger instead i was lookin at her body line which was perfect with her dress code. she raised her voice and asked me..."Where are you looking at? look into my eyes and speak...Do u love me??"



                     Once again i was speechless! But I had to make some reply n so i did it!...."Yes!I do love you!How did u knw it?"

                     "ur assistants..." She replied...

                      And now i didnt know whether to thank my assistants or throw them out of my studio....Few minutes there was nothing but silence!I felt  as if the earth has stopped its functioning! Unable to withstand the silence i asked her "Pretty! Do u love me?? can i hold ur hands for a moment??? ".... Breaking my heart she replied"No".... I felt like.. bursting into tears... to fire my assistants...my colourful dreams faded to black...i was like a live corpse...but..but a minute later she asked me " You will hold my hands only for a moment and not throughout my life??......" I grabbed her into my arms and rested my chin on her shoulder with my arms around her waist! For no reason i started crying,hugging her!



                       Now, This world turned to be beautiful... very beautiful.. just like her!! She often said me "I wanna be the gal who changed ur sad days better..." She loved me like a mom.., cared me as a sister would do..,Shared things with me as a friend...Made romance like a lover...holded my hands like a wife! I didnt know whether she was perfect for me or i was perfect her but everything was perfect when it came to US.



                     It was a rainy day!I was about to take out the liquid "Photoflo" for washing out the negatives and get the photos coloured....I opened the bottle and its then i got a call from her mobile.In a hurry,I went out immediately to pick her from the college without even capping the bottle. Coming back to my studio, I gave her a towel to dry off her hair ... She was lookin perfect  in her wetted dress...!I holded her tight into my arms , looking into her blackish eyes  I started loosing all my thoughts except her...I asked her what wud she wish to ask to god if she is given such a chance?? And she replied.. "If god offers me such a chance... i would like to give u only one thing in my life"..." I wud ask him to give u the ability to see yourself through my eyes, only then would you realize how special you are to me!"  She loved me to the extreme that if some one asks me wat i need as my  b'day gift, I wud say "pls wrap her in a gift paper and present it to me!" Love ruled our lives.....



                     Moving on to my work she offered to help me to get Photoflo back from upstairs... I was wondering how her eyes looked so mesmerizing that cud make a man forget everything... Few Minutes after i heard her screaming out of pain from upstairs and it was because of the uncapped photoflo showered into her eyes wen she was tryin to get it from the top shelf..... I was totally actionless with eyes ful of tears and my assistants helped me to get her to hospital asap.... Doctors tried thier best... I, the person who never kneeled in front of god , did it for fist tym in life to save her life !



                    But.....

                    God did heard my prayers....He gave her back to me but makin her world black! Doctors said Its even hard to get her sight back though they do her Eye transplantation.... Bending my heads towards her i asked her..."How r u..." And She replied "Am fine.. and happy because My world l be dark forever and nothing can distract me from ur thoughts here on...."  Unable to make further talks with her i stepped back  and ran out of the hospital without even waving her a good bye..... Entering my studio i snatched my camera and ran again like a mad into the streets of northern korea..... Days passed on.. I never met her...





Few months later....

                   In park....

                   I cud sense that it was her.... Standing in front of me and crying for making her wish(the wish she replied wen i asked her that rainy day..) as mine... But i never reacted that  i recognised her with her smell n presence of love... After a few seconds she asked me.. "How r u.."and i replied.."Am fine.. and happy because My world l be dark forever and nothing can distract me from ur thoughts here on...." and moved from her thanking the god for giving me a fairy tale with a smile in my lips and tear in my transplanted dead eyes.... Who wud knw my tears under the black sun glasses ??!!           

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